Will I reach my potential

I was taught to be corporate. The school district system is a corporation.
My tactics were designed for that environment. The issues lie with the type of coroporation. Old Money vs New Money corporations is my issue. The beauty of technology for me was that it was always new and innovative. Technology right now is about the old money machine like that on the East Coast.


To me, reaching one's potential and being successful are distinct entities. I have no doubt I will be successful or can do a job and make money doing so. This discussion is based upon reaching the situation where my individual stengths line up with financial outlook, meaning my pay is based on successes that I'm naturally inclined to have due to my skillset and background. In that enviroment, I can be maximum Jonathan and the more of me that I am the more successful I will be. I can't see that happening based upon something that I can control. I think the only way I can ever reach that state will be from an opportunity granted from another profound individual. The individual has to be profound because to recognize something to be greater or more than one's self mandates it. To vouch for someone requires a certain strength of character. The opportunity for me to reach my potential will come because someone vouches for me in the area of my mastery. When that happens or even if that happens won't be for quite a while. As long as I don't ruin or miss my opportunity because of haste, there is a chance that I can reach it. I am a pessimist by nature, and don't want to emotionally invest in something that I can't make happen if I don't have to. In the meantime, I will sit here and develop my skillset put myself in the best possible position for that to happen. The skillset development will give me the credibility to deviate from Corporate life. As a black man, that credibility is not free and someone will have to take a risk on me early, or wait until my credibility is so strong that they can hire come comfortably like that did with Dolphas as Superintendent. He reached his potential in his 60's because it was so obvious he was the one that to not select him would be just plain ignorant. I hope I don't have to wait that long, but that is my example and that is how patient I may have to be to get there.